“Never – I mean, never, ever, start the new year off with a pity party. You should kick off the new year on a positive note.”
Famous words of wisdom spoken from a Procrastinator. Procrastinators are pity party planners, yes they are.
Not like the Pro-doers who:
Hit the gym.
Clear the clutter.
Quit bad habits.
Okay, so yeah, I found one goal on the list I did accomplish. I went gray. Whew, just in time to celebrate as the new year rolled in. All I have to do now is let-it-be and grow-baby-grow. The easy stuff.
Instead, of celebrating going gray, I got sucked into a gray mood. The gloom of gray clouds closing in on me was daunting the last few days. Gray moods are never as much fun as the energy they claim in the form of motivation deprivation.
Dangnabbit, I should know better. This time of year instead of feeling forlorn about the month of January, I should know better. It’s inevitable, especially when I don’t stick to my goals about keeping up with paper processing for our home businesses.
History repeats itself. Every year I write a ‘you were naughty again this year’ love letter to myself. I also try to fire myself. I can’t because I’m the only one doing the job. Sometimes job security isn’t all it’s cracked up to be.
I feel hopeless as I begin the shuffle dance with receipts, papers, and tax forms. Before I know it I’m engulfed in my own little pity party. The party lasts until I get caught up.
Yesterday was, “National Clear Off Your Desk Day.” I wasn’t celebrating. My desk wasn’t cleared off. I had spent the day before discovering the all the things I hadn’t completed leading up to the clearing off day. And the organized piles cannot be lost again. Out of sight, out of mind is what got me to this point.
Besides, I didn’t know it was “NCOYDD” until last night when I saw it on Instagram. Who creates these holidays anyhow? A mailer of sorts mailed out the week before would’ve been helpful. That way, when I was sorting through unread mail, I’d have known to plan for it or at least had a martini to toast the day. I would have put in three olives, too, a clear desk is a thing to celebrate!
Nope, no one sent me a “Happy National Clear Off Your Desk Day” card. That would’ve cheered me up I’m sure of it. A perfect reminder to start the day with a new habit.
Not being able to say I met my goal of keeping up with paperwork and discovering I couldn’t celebrate “NCOYDD” depressed me. So much that I still feel a bit down today. And it’s Tuesday, day three of feeling pitiful, sad, sorrowful, dejected, despondent, disconsolate, wretched, abject, downcast, dispirited, downhearted, crestfallen, melancholy, gloomy, hopeless, and, woebegone.
Even Copper’s adorable smile couldn’t help me shake the mood.
But then, something hit me (it wasn’t falling paper piles either).
Woebegone is a cute word…
My woes should be gone. I know, just like every other year, this is just part of the process. I always get caught up. I always say, “I won’t do that again this year.” And I always feel better after I host my little pity party.
When in doubt, the perfect pick-me-up is a look back at where I started. It helps me see progress. This is my office last year (you’re really going to show that picture – oh, my girl, you’ve really lost it!). I took it as proof of progress I knew I’d need someday (like today).
It was taken while I was in the midst of a major ‘this is the last year I’m going to do this clear-out, purging, sorting and getting caught up’ project. I was on a mission and started a ton of clutter clearing projects at the same time. Talk about depressing and overwhelming. I’m pretty sure that’s when I took the martini picture, too?!?
Seeing that picture helped me clear my blues. Even if my desk isn’t completely clear, I think it’s way better than last year. I love my new office, plants with gnats and all. (One of those damn gnats just flew by again. Misery loves company right?)
Yep – today is a new day. I’ve had my little pity party. I even did a little happy dance (you would’ve clapped – it was that cute!). I am celebrating and smiling ‘cuz my office does look way better than it did last year at this time! I did meet partial goals, and this year is off to a great start.
My woes-be-gone, yes they are!